Yes saw your earlier posts ☹️ difficult to know what to say, I still remember my first mare having to go, I think you just have to remember the good times, lets face it none of us want to be old and suffering pain, maybe we cannot decide what should happen to us but at least we can make sure our Animals go with dignity
As fo Llentil, a friend has a few Alpacas maybe one could be purchased as a little friend
Ll l